This is the first date that I’ve been on that reminds me a lot of who Jay* (the ex) is.. different, clearly, but a lot of the same qualities that I loved about him.

And I still love him. and probably always will. Just like some of my teenage heart will always have a piece of my first love Landon.  You never forget your true loves. and these two were mine.

sigh. insert emo thoughts. that I choose not to indulge at this moment.

But I like the Writer.  He makes me laugh. and gets my quirks. and I reveal my semi-crazy side (against my better judgement) and he liked it. I know. weird.

And even when I thought it was going well.. I got absolute confirmation (because we all still have mini doubts).  He asked if he “earned” a 2nd date (which I appreciate).. and wants to meet my dog. This Saturday afternoon.  

I get these weird butterflies when I think about this upcoming date.

And I weirdly miss Jay*. But I do pretty much all the time a lot anyways.. gah.

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